Monday, April 25, 2011

Beginning

Here it is folks. My blog chronicling the coming months of pregnancy and the growth of my child. It's not fancy, but it's what I've got.

First of all, let's clear things up. I'm going to be straight with you. A while ago I fell into sin and started sleeping with my boyfriend. We soon discussed having a child. Very soon after that I realized that was not a good idea so early in the relationship. But at that point it was too late. All it takes is once, right? Well that's all it took for us. When the doctor told me I was pregnant everything changed. I knew I had to give up drinking and smoking and become responsible. Apparently the father had no intention of doing so. Soon after finding out he was going to be a father, he got drunk and I got scared and mad and ran home. Once back in my parents house I prayed for the first time in a while and everything clicked. I knew I had to get out of that lifestyle. I continued to try to work thing out with the father, giving him chance after chance and all he did was prove that even at 30 some people will always be a child. How can a child raise a child? So the Lima Bean and I are on our own, but we're not alone. Lucky for us, I have an amazing support system in my parents, my siblings, my friends, my extended family, and most importantly in God.

6 comments:

  1. I'm so glad the Lord is giving you wisdom in this situation. The Lima Bean is blessed to have you as his or her mother. :)

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  2. You are not alone - you're LOVED (you and the Lima Bean!)! We are deeply thankful you are back. :)

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  3. Ok I can't bring myself to say lima bean....but am very excited that you have a blog so I can follow my little niece or nephew. :)

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  4. Thanks for sharing, Amanda! We are praying for you both! Hugs!

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  5. Hugs Amanda... Looking forward to following your new journey!

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  6. Hi, Amanda. I just "discovered" your blog today (through a blog-FB-blog rabbit trail of sorts) and caught up on your story. Thanks so much for posting this very frank beginning. I'm sure that someday your son will very much appreciate this story as well!

    Blessings, Amanda.

    Love,
    Kim Smith

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